Why can't I get over you, whats wrong with me?
I used to feel joy, now I can't even feel glee...
All I ever wanted to do was to look into your eyes,
How could I be so stupid to fall for your awful lies.
I should have said no, I should have tried,
Because now I'm filled with regrets & the constant sigh.
You had no idea that I slowly fell in love with you.
Happy thoughts, and your name all over my notebook too.
I cried for hours, even days on end
I now realize, you never wanted to be my friend.
If love was a distance, for you, I'd walk a mile.
Now everytime you walk in, I'm forced to fake a smile.
Everyone can see that I'm dealing with overbearing pain.
But to selfish you, I remain just the same.
I must have been stupid to think we could be,
I must have been stupid to think you would ever want me.
I'm thinking of that day,
that sad day...
The day you left me and went away.
I know I'm holding onto a dream that won't come true.
Not even a "Good Morning or "Goodbye" too.
My heart never could so easily shatter.
Now I hardly think my own life matters.
Sadness claws at me, Darkness calls out my name.
Why can't you see that I'm hurting and stop this game.
My body is a cold lifelss shell.
This is my dying in your eyes, can't you tell?
However,strangely since you don't care, there's light in my eyes.
I'm not sad anymore...I don't even cry.
I will not lose my focus, my sight.
I have realized I don't need you to make me bright.
I've been facing this pain with all my might.
I'm slowly noticing that I can win this fight.
Thanks to my friends, I know I don't need you in my life.
And that your not worth cutting over with any knife.
You were never mine, dosen't matter, you weren't the one.
It's taken weeks to get over you, I'm finally done.
I will find someone one day and that wont be you.
No not you, the one that makes me feel blue.
I can finally say " I don't need you, you make me feel bad
My emotions are in control,I'm back to feeling glad.
My life is better, I'm up from my down,
Without you to turn my smile to a frown.
I will never cry after you again,your not worth the time.
I refuse to be broken, I won't commit that crime.
I am stronger than that, so much more.
You honestly think I care if you leave through the door?
Go ahead, see if I care, you can try.
I will not care, and I sure as heck won't cry.
I am an amazing person, I don't need you to tell me this
I don't want anything from you, not even a kiss.
Please don't call & dont come by.
It won't do you no good, don't ask me why.
I feel like cutting my lips off, oh is that too rude?
If you asked me out again, I would say" Nah not in the mood
I wasted so much time on you, All those sighs.
Now as I look back, I say " Wow I must have been high."
I won't ever forgive you for all this pain.
But they'll be no more crying in the rain.
My heart is better , it no longer needs to mend.
You were not my beginning and you won't be my end.
I will admit this all hurt at first, just a bit.
But now I'm so over you, I'm so over it.
posted on 01/10/2008