*Alon3 Lost and Confused*

You kicked me out
Knowing I would barely survive
And yes Im barely getting by

I felt like I couldn't do it
I felt like I needed family
Feeling so alone, lost, and confused
Its all up to me

I still had my step family
And i felt like i had to do right
In order to keep them in my life
But now they don't want to talk to me
I have failed them and I cry

Again alone, lost, and confused
Feeling usless, stupid, don't know what to do
But a feeling deep inside said i can do it

Making my family
Who now disowns me
My motivation to do something
Make something of my life of me

I have set my goals
I know what I want to do
I know who I want to be
I want to succeed and be me

Be a CNA
Working two jobs
Writing my books
I want to do alot

I know if I put my mind to it
I really can do it
If I beleive in myself
I can get through life its self

And the say i have my own car
They day I have a apartment
When I know Im doing good
And finally publish a book

Im coming back mom
Im coming back to my family
And Im going to say
I don't need you I just need me

Ill tell my mom
Thank you for no support or believing in me
Im everything I wanted to be

Thought I needed you then
Figured out I didn't
And sure as hell don't need you now
I woun't ever need you damn it

I made a big mistake leaving San Antonio
But made the biggest mistake meeting you
Letting you back ito my life
Im disappointed in the things you do

So what Im trying to say is
I don't need you
Just me, my plans, and success
Never again alone, lost, and confused


Dedicated to my wanna be mom stay the hell out of my life and dedicated to to my step family who thought i wouldn't make it through on my own

by Hiddenot
posted on 06/11/2010

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